I am enough…

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For a long time I struggled with the concept of my self-worth and my divine potential. As a member of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints we are taught that we are children of a loving Heavenly Father and that we have divine potential and worth as His child. I believe this to be true and it helps me build my relationship with Heavenly Father and my brother Jesus Christ.

Because this truth is so powerful, the master of all lies attempts to belittle this and prevent every child of God from understanding their potential. This is going to happen, so don’t be surprised when it happens to you. Even someone who doesn’t believe in Christ or God will struggle with this and I know that every one of us has great potential and that our worth is more than we allow ourselves to see or feel it is.

Like a mirror reflects what is seen, our worth is the same way. How we see ourselves (our own worth) is what can cause doubt. Our worth is great and once we realize that we are enough just the way we are, imperfections and all, then we begin to see ourselves as our Heavenly Father does.

I have a very special friend who I walk with weekly and on our walks we always have gospel-inspired and faith-promoting conversations. After this particular walk we were outside her house and were talking about my desire to be married and find my eternal companion.

After recently getting engaged and it ending due to personal reasons, I have been trying to heal and also get in a place where I am ready to find love.

Just because you fall in love with someone, doesn’t mean they were the right person.

What most don’t know is that when my engagement ended I became very hurt. I felt betrayed and alone. I have always struggled with the concept of people not accepting me for me and so I often shelter the difficult feelings or the ones that make me vulnerable. So when I shared with my ex-fiancé that I was unhappy in our relationship and that I wanted us to work on that, I assumed that we would and that we would find that happiness again. But she ran away! The next day she abandoned me.

I felt hurt, betrayed and became hardened and guarded on ever wanting to find love again!

I know that I want love and companionship. In fact this is my one greatest desire today. Many people say that when one is truly not seeking after it, then it will find them. This concept has always seemed off to me as it makes sense to me to chase after the things that I want. So if I want to be married then I need to seek for that. My friend phrased it differently and it opened my eyes to understanding.

We need to realize that as ourselves (one person) we are enough, as is, to our Heavenly Father. It doesn’t matter what our imperfections are, to Him we are enough.

I don’t need to find someone to complete me, in turn making me enough or whole to the Lord. My own ability to view myself as enough is what makes me whole and complete. Using the atonement and Christ to help me is what makes me enough and worthy to return to God’s presence for eternal happiness.

So this is my goal! I no longer seek others to complete me! I work on viewing myself (even when I error) as enough to God through the Lord. I am enough as myself, in this moment.

I don’t need others to tell me that I am enough or need others approval to live a certain way. I am to live my life for myself and for me this involves including Christ and my faith.

Seek after improving your own view of your worth and your confidence that you are enough to Him and to yourself. Don’t focus on perfection, focus on acceptance and on your potential. Make your potential the goal and let life happen, the rest will come little by little once we are ready.

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One thought on “I am enough…”

  1. I liked a lot from this post, so I don’t really know where to begin. First of all, I think we all appreciate your openness because it shows us that we aren’t alone with certain struggles. That is something I’ve learned this past year is that as we open up we realize there are others who have experienced the same or something similar.

    I liked the part where you said, “Like a mirror reflects what is seen, our worth is the same way. How we see ourselves (our own worth) is what can cause doubt. Our worth is great and once we realize that we are enough just the way we are, imperfections and all, then we begin to see ourselves as our Heavenly Father does.”

    And I do think that sometimes Love happens when we least expect it. Or In a way we weren’t expecting. Sometimes when that is all we focus on (finding someone) we lose sight of all the other wonderful stuff going on around us.

    I know you said you don’t need others to tell you, but… Can I just say I hope you can one day see what Heavenly Father sees when you look at yourself because I know that the red headed man I see is MOST definitely ENOUGH.

    I wish you luck on your journey of viewing yourself as God sees you. And again, thank you for opening up for us – as readers – to be able to connect to you and know we aren’t alone.

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